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well talked to that umm ok that bitch who said she loved me but i wont get in to that right now but i talked to her today and of course she had the gratest news for me she has told me that i should wait to see if it is going to work out with some FUCK she says she likes so i should just wait to see if she will get back with me ......oh ok i just do that i will but my life on hold will you go around and fuck who ever you want my buddy says dont worry about it and just move on ok not what i wanted to here i mean we had talked about geting married haveing kids and now i am a backup as she puts it now this is the girl that i save from her stepfather witch was beating the hell out of her and here mama so i guess she hope some little HIGH SCHOOL kid will protect her i dont know should i try to forget,move on or should i fight trust me prep boy would not stand a chance but would it be worth it would she not just do it again if i got with her again so here i am at the cross roads with a beer and a razor of course dont forget my trusty 45 i dont know i guess i am just another druck with problems and dont know what to do now i know no one reads this so i dont realy care what people think and even if they did read i dont care if people thank i am a idiot for thinking this way she knew my past and new what i had been through but still put me throuh this god if i did not love her i would shot here and her new bow but i would never forgive myself i mean it is not the first time i have been at this crossroad of course i made the right chose in witch i am not going to say becouse you never know who is watching but lets sjust say it wont happen again with the first one but what should i do here and now i fell lost like a shep with out a flock my friends if you call them that dont like me when i am like this and call me crazy becouse i use a razor to cut myself all thought in a fight they like me there becuse t never hurts to have a 6 foot tall almost 300 pound garilla on your side when trouble starts but when i am sad or unhappy they dont like me around so i stay in this house,in this cell,in this prison locked in and alone wondering if i died how it would take some one to find my body....... hey i guess no one but my mother would come to the funeral or even morn my father would just be up set that no one to cary on the family name aye and what a great family it is drunks thefs and crimenals but hey thats life i am just another smell in this damn house on this planet my fav line has always ben "god hates me well hate him back it works for me" so i will be here hating god ranting and screaming at who ever listens so thanks for listing to and old drunk drunks ranting and raving









Mood:pissed and drunk

Music:slipknot

well hello all you happy people.... ok if you are here your not happy so lets not pretend well another great day here in the gate way i will say it is raining so my day is geting better i love a cloudy dismal day cant help it makes me qiver ok qiver mite not be the best chouse but you get the idea well the qween bitch if the world had decided that she does not want me around oh exscuse me Miss qween bitch does not want to me so here i am in happy land yeah its good to be me so whats happing in the clean world what sun light ohh i hate short storms its like god is teseing me saying here is a little happynes now i take it back eh it happens a lot here so yeah know i guess i have to get used to it huh oh well

life here in this dismal town.....well sucks nothing to do lost someone close to me and was told i was a back up if you have been told that you understand what it means. The only joy i have is the feeling of cold steel as it is cutting my arm releasing the blood is the only joy i have. THis town these people can such the feeling right out of you what can i say but i cut to feel again pain my only release well thanks for listing